Swayden blood daubed vine...

This week I've learned that there are two sides to every city, person, company, etc. "J" told me about some strange little communities that exist in my new back yard, and while I'm intrigued, I remain a little uncomfortable with regards to my potential participation. Echoes of past business relationships that went awry, nasty little extracurricular activities that should never be brought into the light of day, and so on. Must speak with "G" about this stuff, as she is likely to have insight. Lost in a forest, all alone...

Everything counts in large amounts...

Still in Chicago for another 2 weeks. Here, perception is reality. Anywhere else, it's crap. We make toy soldiers, how hard can this really be?
On another note, it's time to circle the wagons at home and visit some people. "G" is first on the list, she and I need a chance to exchange stories of the sacred and profane. Stay tuned...

That which passes, passes like clouds

"History is on the move. Those who cannot keep up will be left behind to watch from a distance. Those who stand in my way will not watch at all."

A great quote which speaks both of change and vision. One must be willing to adapt and change in order to keep true to one's vision. Huge change going on in my life and my hobby of 'collecting people' is proving valuable. I've learned something valuable this week which warrants mention: regardless of the amount of change that takes place in my life, it is people that make things in my life a success or failure. the rest is just details. More to come on this, as my tour of duty in Chicago presses on.

The Decadent Host...

We're back after a short break. My apologies for not turning my DJ set at the Full Moon last night, had a slight case of overexhaustion. Some tidbits in the wake of the past few...

* happy birthday courtney
* good luck in NY, christine
* call me back, Halle
* the shoes are fine
* for those in new orleans who think they have it bad, wait until they relocate you to Houston!

Never smile at a crocodile...

Trusting someone is like carrying a sword. The sheath may protect you, but the blade remains sharp.
I must admit, people are all-too eager to take advantage of those whom they see as being 'less informed.' it's happened to me on a number of occasions. sometimes i'll ask a question that i already know the answer to, and that's when people show me how painfully dishonest they can be. works (almost) every time. i have a real problem being lied to. the lie may already be several days or weeks old, but i'll carry it with me and wait for the right moment to confront someone with it. maybe it's some way that i present myself, but people continuously try to pull the wool over my eyes. have you ever seen a crocodile sleep? trust it a little, and let me know how that works out.

If you HAVE to leave a party, always take a traveller...

Going to Chicago in about a week... already establishing contacts... recruiting new members... sinking in the fangs...

Hopefully, you've found your way home...

People sometimes ask me what i do for a living (Caroline, Aug 25th) and simply say that i sell toy soldiers. If any of you have any suggestions that are equally as simple and profound, i'd love to hear them.

Twist and turn...burn, burn, burn.

I was talking with Sheri last night about the fact that, for me, life has seemed to have split into 3 parts. perhaps this blog will serve to congeal those parts into one complete mess. At least it's only one mess, however. That's easier to keep track of.

To do:

1. I should really go to Boris's place tonight.

2. Need to call Gena to make sure she's ok--i'm so thrilled that we're both going through similarly horrible circumstances. misery truly loves company. we both love the fact that we're equally distrought, and yet can 'safely' talk to each other.

3. Call my sister (the one I do have) to see how she's doing.

Oh. I'll be spinning at the full moon next Thursday. Already picking out the set list. Highlights will include the cure, some older Echo & the Bunnymen, Siouxsie, the Teardrop Explodes, Joy Division, etc.

that's all for now...